emotions are exploding. everything is gelling so well with SPOP but I’m having such a hard time balancing everything ugh. Same story different day.
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I think I’m finally getting hit by everything. I want to be alone and for time to stop for a bit. I’d like to share my sincerest appreciation and love for the people in my life.
I have this fear of looking into the past. I cannot bring myself to look at old photos. Those photos are immortal moments of bliss that made life at that very moment, great. I will always believe in better times, but I know I cannot replicate the past.
I’m not ready to graduate. I’m graduating in 3 weeks.
Source: internalogicThis is a really exciting time for us (us being the graduating class of 2012)
Every day we are making progress towards fulfilling our dreams, achieving our goals, and making it out in the real world. Every little step counts and every moment that passes us by we get closer to saying farewell to…
Crazy times. Best friend just graduated. I’m graduating in less than a month. Societal pressures are beaming down like no other amongst my peers. Clearly, there are a lot of flaws to my opinion on this, but understand that those flaws are definitely present when I do write this, and that this whole positivity/yolo type of attitude isn’t accompanied with assumptions of responsibility and outofour-control conditions.
The issue: Students graduating are worried about their futures (duh). Like sheep we have been herded from one station to the next, and it seems that even as an almost college graduate we are getting crowded into another stage, work. First off, I want to take my hat off to those who’ve already started with their full time jobs and are making it. This dissertation is in no way to disrespect you all for being incredibly driven. This is merely a post about how I don’t like how our early lives are so incredibly linear and that there is this notion that if we don’t stay on this line, you fall, burn, and die in misery.
Money does correlate with happiness. I’ll admit that. Money makes things more convenient and situations not as stressful. Quite honestly there are a lot of things, a lot of us would rather do say we had the money to do so, but this doesn’t necessarily dictate how we should behave.
So here is the linear progression that I feel US society has made the norm. Elementary school -> high school -> 4 year college -> work (get rich) -> get married -> kids -> retirement.
Okay, so here is my young rebellious rant against society (sarcasm). Honestly, I’m in a blessed position and I am not financially screwed. My parents make enough, and I can get by while paying for things I’d like to do. I get it. But here I am working a decent workload (20-25 hr/week) and involved in a bunch of things at school. I’m not in a rush to get into graduate school, I’m not in a rush to find a profession. What I know is that I have a passion for physical therapy, and I have all the qualifications, prerequisites and paperwork to get into a physical therapy school. What I also know is that this is a time of my life where I can potentially be dynamically happy (attaining happiness through many extravagant forms of bliss that I may not physically/mentally do when I’m older). I know for a fact that mind and body, after this whole enlightening/self discovering college experience, can jump into stagnation with a 9-5 job.
What I’m in the works of planning is a trip back to South America. Whether it be an internship in Valparaiso or simply backpacking through the continent, I would love to do this. I’m in the works of pioneering the field of break dance science with my biomechanics of dance lab at UCI. I’m in the works of taking advantage of my age and my curiosity and making the best of my current situation. Money definitely will be a problem. I’m going to have to work and save specifically for the things I want to do, but I know it can work. It can work. I’ll be combining things that I want to do with things that I will do, and in this fusion of +/+ type of planning, I really won’t be taking any steps back towards my physical therapy pursuit.
Quoted from one of my friends I talked to today, “I talked to many of the faculty here at UCI, and they told me is that they regret going into work so early, and that they didn’t travel the world when they were young.” That’s pretty significant thinking about THAT is their biggest regret in their life.
Honestly speaking, it is ridiculously tough to get a job and get into grad school. And it’s to no surprise people get into school at an average of 25 years of age (where did i get the statistic? I have no idea, read it somewhere). So seriously, nobody is behind. It’s all relative. I have friends going to work in Brazil, backpacking through Europe, and even teaching overseas. These are the people I envy and admire because they are making the best of these upcoming years. Are they worried about their future? Sure are. But they rest assure that they themselves have grown into something that somebody will eventually want to employ. They rest assure that they are taking the time not to please someone else, but to live for themselves.
To my fellow classmates graduating now/soon, if you haven’t been accepted into a school nor have a full time job, relax. You’ll have a degree that gives you some sort of academic/intellectual merit that essentially will have the same affect this year and the years to come. You all have to believe that you can do something amazing in this world and that if the time is not now you have to be patient. I feel it is our time to live a young adult life while it lasts before our final plunge into the working world. abrupt ending. goodnight.
5/17: ran on the alterG, pilates
5/18: danced my drunk ass off at Sun God
5/19: upper body
cool
AlterG - 70% body weight 4.0 mph walk 10 minutes, 65% body weight 6.0 mph jog 8 minutes, 60% body weight 8.0 run 5 minutes, 70% body weight 3.5 walk 7 minutes.
Upper body - deltoid abd/adduction 12 lbs 12x3, deltoid flex/extend 12 lbs 12x3, bicep curls 15 lbs 10x3, triceps 30 assisted lbs 15x3, chest flies 50 lbs 12x3, rubber web finger contractions ~300 reps.
Pilates - Bridge w/ swiss ball 15x, foam roll table top toe taps 30x, foam roll table top bicycles 30x, chest lifts 20x, chest lifts w/ twist 20x, foam roll thoracic stretch (the best!)
Boxing 5/14
Stretching/warmup 10min, shadowboxing 10 min, gloves on/shadow boxing 5 min, 200 1/2’s, 400 upper cuts(3/4), 200 1/2’s, 25 1234’s, 200 1/2’s, 100 hooks (5/6), 20 123456’s, 25 1256’s, 25 1234’s, 15 1212’s, other combos for 15 minutes straight. 20 pushups.
Road to Recovery 5/13
Time to get back into shape. Let’s see how this lasts. Maybe if I record what I do, I’ll be more inclined to stick to it.
- AlterG 45 minutes. 65% of weight @ 4.0 mph walking 30 minutes, 55% of weight @ 7.5 mph jogging 10 minutes, 50% of weight @ 10.0 sprinting 5 minutes
- Pilates. Pelvic tilts, bridging, bridging on swiss ball, table top toe taps, table top bicycle, table top 100s, trunk twists, reformer foot work, chest lifts, chest lifts side to side.
- Rapid Release Technology (RRT) on left medial vastus medialis tendon and on right anterior tibiofibular ligament. 5 minutes each
- IFC Electrical Stimulation on lumbar with ice 15 minutes.
okay so shit has been ridiculously busy. Here is when I get back to tumblr. K i’m back.
What has been up?
-SPOP. Loving being a returner and being a Spapa. <3 my DMC4T family. Lot’s of time
I choreo’d a piece for SPOP modern. Here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFTRJ-OnyRw
- I found a love in archery. definitely going to pursue it soon.
- saw blue scholars, incubus, coldplay perform live.
- went to a clipper playoff game against my grizzlies (we lost the series today :[ )
- I’m everywhere. Trying my best, honestly, to keep in touch with people. It’s tough
1 month til I graduate. yikes.
one of the longests days yet. thankfully I dont have to get up til 8am tomorrow.
SPOP has been crazy, and I’m loving every second. It’s really weird how everything continues to work out really well for me, whilst at the same time I’m able to witness my own growth as a person.
I may not deserve the fortune I am receiving, but I sure hell am going to make the best of it every single moment.
PS happy birthday riza :]
